Sometimes a smile is just a lie,
A mask I wear so none ask why.
I laugh, I nod, I play along,
But inside me, there's nothing strong.

Each day I walk through hollow air,
With pain too sharp for me to share.
The ones around wouldn't see
The quiet war consuming me.

And in that war, I had one light
A hand that held me through the night.
But I was fire, and burned it down,
Now all I know is how to drown.

You were the only one who knew,
The only one who pulled me through.
But I was scared, I shut you out,
Now I'm just filled with fear and doubt.

I broke the bridge, I lost the way,
And now there's nothing left to say.
You're gone and I am death's own guest,
A heart that can't find any rest.

The nights are long, the dark is deep,
The stars don't shine, the sky won't sleep.
And every breath just feels too loud
When you're not here to pull me out.

I know I failed, I know I fell,
This mind's a maze, a private hell.
I wear my smile like it's a shield
But cracks are all it's ever healed.

They tell me, "Fight," but not the cost,
They've never lived what I have lost.
And now I see, too late, too clear,
The only one I needed… disappeared.

I whisper loud, inside my head,
Would dying hurt less than this dread?
At least the silence might be kind
When life just tears apart your mind.

So if I go, don't place the blame,
I lost the fight, but played the game.
I walked through fire with broken feet,
But even hope admits defeat.

You were my last, my only flame.
But I burned you too, and took the shame.
Now even light has left my side,
And all that's left is pain to hide.